Friday, January 14, 2011

missing my boy


how could you NOT miss this face?
 so, i dropped josey off with his dad this afternoon. was worried because snow was coming, but josey texted to let me know they stopped somewhere along the way for the night because of the snow. he was especially sad about going this time, not sure why, other than he said that he was really going to miss his mom. i felt bad about making him go, but we really have no choice in the matter.
so it is very quiet around here, even for 11:25pm. i had fallen asleep around 8 tonight then woke up at 10:30 (because that's what i do when i go to bed too early) so without thinking about it, i came downstairs quietly, taking care not to wake josey....but realized after a half hour that he isn't even here. so reality has hit that he's not home for the weekend :o(
what to do with a weekend to myself. i thought i'd be used to it by now, after all it's been over 6 yrs since we've been doing this already. but does one ever get used to not having their child gone? i'm not sure. i hope not...that would be sad. i don't even know if it really gets easier to deal with, but i do say that without God, i wouldn't deal with it well. He hasn't taken the *storm* away, but He has given me peace thru it. i think when Jesus was in the boat with His disciples during the storm in Mark 4, when He said "Peace, be still!" He was actually talking to the disciples along with the wind and waves around them. i know He's said it to me many times....like every time i have to drop josey off with his dad.
it's still hard, but when i hear the words, "peace, Dawn, be still," i'm quieted and given peace. what a wonderful Savior! what an awesome Quieter of storms! i thank Him and love Him more and more every day!

1 comment:

  1. Praying for you this weekend and many more to come that God would give you peace and purpose with your time. ((hugs))

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Friday, January 14, 2011

missing my boy


how could you NOT miss this face?
 so, i dropped josey off with his dad this afternoon. was worried because snow was coming, but josey texted to let me know they stopped somewhere along the way for the night because of the snow. he was especially sad about going this time, not sure why, other than he said that he was really going to miss his mom. i felt bad about making him go, but we really have no choice in the matter.
so it is very quiet around here, even for 11:25pm. i had fallen asleep around 8 tonight then woke up at 10:30 (because that's what i do when i go to bed too early) so without thinking about it, i came downstairs quietly, taking care not to wake josey....but realized after a half hour that he isn't even here. so reality has hit that he's not home for the weekend :o(
what to do with a weekend to myself. i thought i'd be used to it by now, after all it's been over 6 yrs since we've been doing this already. but does one ever get used to not having their child gone? i'm not sure. i hope not...that would be sad. i don't even know if it really gets easier to deal with, but i do say that without God, i wouldn't deal with it well. He hasn't taken the *storm* away, but He has given me peace thru it. i think when Jesus was in the boat with His disciples during the storm in Mark 4, when He said "Peace, be still!" He was actually talking to the disciples along with the wind and waves around them. i know He's said it to me many times....like every time i have to drop josey off with his dad.
it's still hard, but when i hear the words, "peace, Dawn, be still," i'm quieted and given peace. what a wonderful Savior! what an awesome Quieter of storms! i thank Him and love Him more and more every day!

1 comment:

  1. Praying for you this weekend and many more to come that God would give you peace and purpose with your time. ((hugs))

    ReplyDelete